Right, well now I have 8 months 'left to live'!

All of July. August. September. October. November. December. January. and February. Then i am back to work in March. Seeing all these months listed helps to show just how time i have....... I want to make the most of it!

The past 5 weeks have escaped me, just as the next 8 months may if i dont actually DO the things I want to do.

To be fair baby R and I both had a dose of the measles (thankfully both made full recoveries) which sucked up plenty of time and energy; we had a visit from G's mum, so spent a week being tourists which was lovely. I also got bogged down with trying to come to terms with the reality of life back in the grind, and have started searching for a nursery for R for next March- i am discovering how difficult it is to get a place in a good, conveniently located nursery. Also in these past weeks we have started some baby classes, so far we have tried baby massage and baby yoga and baby signing. Since my first post i also studied for and sat my Life in the UK test and submitted my Indefinite Leave application.

But all signs really do point to GO! Its now or never, and i dont want it to be never. Its better to regret something you did than something you didnt do ( or barely started). Im not scared of failing the blog thing as such, but am just not sure that i have anything particularly valuable to say.. but for me , for now its not about sharing any great epiphanies i may one day have, its about challenging myself to focus, and to make the most of life, my baby, London and myself. And to keep up my end of the bargain in being the best partner, and now mother that i can be for G and R.

I have had a tiny boost of confidence recently by being photographed and interviewed for a piece in the Observer about the area i live in, Lower Clapton............it will be published next week, but its about the gentrification of the area!- not exactly the best topic to be the 'face' of..but i am living this life.
Also my tattoo artist has asked me to be included in a book she is creating about women and tattoos!

So where to actually begin? What do i actually post about first, what do i write down that i will then be held accountable to 'do'?
There is a huge list of 'things' that float around my head, elements of me/ life that i am interested in or want to dedicate some time to.

In no particular order these include:

Coffee - i love coffee and as a 'baby muva' have plenty of time to enjoy a cuppa out and about..

Cake & Cooking - as above, i make time to enjoy cake too.. i need the extra calories while i am breastfeeding! and its a habit that i picked up when pregnant that is hard to kick... but the cost is definitely bitter sweet, so i'd like to start baking, and cooking more.. I feel that i should be able to achieve something tangible, and tasty during the day, in addition to the (hopefully) great job i am doing of raising our daughter.

Clapton & Community- especially now that i am the face of gentrification of the area(!!) i would like to be more involved and contribute to and participate in my lovely local area, while getting to know it even better.

Child/Children- my 4 month old baby daughter is a constant source of wonder and amazement and as she grows so does my need for knowledge about all things child.Hopefully i can shaer some worthy expereicnes too.

Culture/London, having lived in London for five years now, its really about time i 'did' lots of the London things i have not yet got around to doing... i have the aim of doing one 'London' thing per week. Embarrassingly there are still loads of art galleries that i have not yet visited and with the Olympics and Summer just around the corner this year will provide even more events and activities to experience. I would also like to read more.


Other things i want and need to do for me, which i am less likely to blog about but should note, to keep me honest are things like my Career- trying to work out what i want to be when i grow up, Exercise- getting back to the gym and pool and yoga mat. Fashion- and Tattoos growing my collection of the later and enjoying the former. Friends-keeping intouch with friends both near and far, and making longer term life plans with my partner.


Ok, I need to put my words into action, and pictures can help me do that... so i WILL upload some images, soon!

Ha! lets see how long it is between posts...........

Bekx

9 months to live

hello. this is where i will attempt to become me- the person i want to be. i have 9 months of maternity leave left and want to maximise every second of it. spending quality time with my daughter and becoming the best person i can be. physically, mentally, spiritually and socially.